the worst mistake I made was getting on a plane at 17 years old to fly towards an abusive relationship. I used to tell myself to keep continuing my prior abusive relationship because when it’s good, it’s good. It’s not worth it. It’s never going to be worth it. I lost my family, my friends. Even though I always felt disconnected from everyone, it’s better than being connected to your significant other through fear. I am wasting the best years of my life under the control of an insecure manipulative human being all over again. I hope one day I have the strength to just go home